I'm sorry I didn't talk to her more this weekend about things, I should have cleared things up
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Friday, October 13, 2023
Just screenshot this and send it to her
For people reading later
Max is not going to be at the faire
If people want to be mad at her for not being there, that's my fault.
Max was getting dragged along by me, and never really had a chance to be in the discussions we were having about our plans. I'm sorry she felt trapped as if I was railroading her.
But, I thought we were on the same page when we last talked, and based on our conversation yesterday I believed that I was not putting you in any sort of uncomfortable position.
Max, you know if all the people here, I'm trying to look out for you, can you please not treat it like I was out to entrap/subvert your wishes.
Max, the one skill I have never been able to figure out is how to read beneath the messages you send and try to determine how you feel about something.
I feel like there are conversations that we have, where I take away the completely wrong thing.
I try to get ahead of things, and try to make things favorable for you, and may we that's just me fucking up, but I'm not trying to do anything other than be as best a friend I can for you
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Saturday, October 14, 2023
Idk what to really say,
I feel absolutely terrible and I'm sorry for the abrupt disappearance but I can't handle this anymore. Im going to try walking away for a little while, even though I don't think that will fix anything and idk if I can even stick with it.
Max, you are one of the two people I trust implicitly and am sorry for how you felt about everything this week. I will figure out how we can fix things.
Dan, Gent, Rusp, Regi, and Mini, I'm sorry if you feel like this has anything to do with you, I think I enjoyed getting to meet you all this week, but everything is so clouded that idfk. I do know that I will regret not being at the faire with you today more than you could possibly imagine. I think it will eat away at me every day, I've been looking forward too for months, and I realize I will never get the opportunity again to do something like this, but I think it might kill me to be there.
I cannot function like this anymore, I live my life replaying the same things I've blamed myself for over and over again, to the point that my mind unraveles if I'm alone with my own thoughts.
Idk what a long-term fix is for this other than me and Max communicating better, but for now I feel like this is what I have to do.
And sorry Rusp, for not playing Phijkchu Quest
what if you went to a water park?
If spooky kills himself we are banning max right?
Damn guess I should have prevented this after all
My bad spooky next time I will do something when I notice it
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I can't believe you didn't notice Jason hiding in those bushes
Rusp will be next most likely
I miss him
Bye Jaz
Sunday, October 15, 2023
Dear fags,
I'm struggling to find the right words, but I need to say this. I feel truly awful, and I'm sorry for not meeting your expectations as a femboy and degenerate. I've let you down, and for that, I'm deeply sorry.
My abrupt disappearance today wasn't a result of anything you did, and I apologize for any hurt feelings this week. We'll figure out how to mend things.
To Dan, Gent, Rusp, Gwar Gura, and Mini, if you think this is somehow your fault, it's not. I genuinely enjoyed getting to know you all this week, but my mind is clouded, and I'm lost. I regret not sharing a bed with you, and it will haunt me. I won't have another chance like this.
I'm struggling to function like this, constantly replaying my own self-blame. I need to step away to regain clarity. I'm not sure of a long-term solution, but I'll ask mint how to start hrt. For now, I hope you understand that this is something I have to do.
And Rusp, I'm sorry for not playing Phijkchu Quest.
Erm…
After todays events we cannot begin to describe how we feel. Our abrupt disappearance has only left us stricken with deep regret.
Unlike Gawr Gura’s delicious foot, this mistake cannot be fixed with glue. For our own health and mental state we decided to walk away from this all and try to get this weekend out of our headspace.
To Gent and his gross ass carbonara, we’re sorry if you felt like your personality or your cooking scared us off. We both genuinely enjoyed getting to know you and eat your disgusting spaghetti, but our stomach is clogged with Skyline Chili. We both regret not cleaning up the house and taking the orange juice. We won't get another chance to fix this mistake, and our social karma will surely go down.
We cannot function in general, constantly looking at Gawr Gura inflation porn. At this point we wanted to get away from it all, looking for a long-term solution. For now, we have decided to never visit that shithole of Dayton, Ohio ever again.
And to Rusp, I, Dan Markiplier the Scribe, am sorry for ever playing Phijkchu Quest.