vetting

Idk what to really say, I feel absolutely terrible and I'm sorry for the abrupt disappearance but I can't handle this anymore. Im going to try walking away for a little while, even though I don't think that will fix anything and idk if I can even stick with it. Max, you are one of the two people I trust implicitly and am sorry for how you felt about everything this week. I will figure out how we can fix things. Dan, Gent, Rusp, Regi, and Mini, I'm sorry if you feel like this has anything to do with you, I think I enjoyed getting to meet you all this week, but everything is so clouded that idfk. I do know that I will regret not being at the faire with you today more than you could possibly imagine. I think it will eat away at me every day, I've been looking forward too for months, and I realize I will never get the opportunity again to do something like this, but I think it might kill me to be there. I cannot function like this anymore, I live my life replaying the same things I've blamed myself for over and over again, to the point that my mind unraveles if I'm alone with my own thoughts. Idk what a long-term fix is for this other than me and Max communicating better, but for now I feel like this is what I have to do. And sorry Rusp, for not playing Phijkchu Quest