Not that they are what put me in that period
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Monday, June 17, 2024
What put me in that period is I don't fucking know, I was mostly fine for weeks after coming back then suddenly it happened
I would wake up and be fine but inevitably throughout the day become convinced there was some sign of a stroke or death
Pirate, next time I think you should let us each pick a single pill for you to try
there are some cool named ones that your doctors have been missing out on
Well I believe that there was not actually a sign logically
But when it is happening it feels like there is an actual danger
Replying to Spooky Phijkchu #spooky.131 Pirate, next time I think you should let us each pick a single pill for you to try there are some cool named ones that your doctors have been missing out on
I like this idea. Just have Pirate go in with a long list of pills and ask his doctor about each
The last one before i had these pills was a constant feeling of a sinking feeling in my heart
And if I focused on it without doing anything it would feel like I needed to manually beat it
The root of this is the time when i passed out randomly
That probably made me hyper-sensitive to any signs of potentially passing out
Which extended like a feedback loop
Pirate, this is not a joke question
but have you considered riding a roller coaster that will force you to black out on?
if you're hyperfixated on signs of impending blackout
voluntarily engaging in a safe blackout method
Well the initial problem was that my experience after passing out was very bad
that has a known entry and exit condition
I don't know if you remember how I described it
I'm not suggesting it, I just had the idea and wondered if you had the same thought
I do Pirate
Although it is long enough ago now that I am not really worrying about that in particular as much now
I think it is mental probably
There are some things that do not add up though
Such as why I passed out the first time just randomly after waking up
Or why it suddenly came back even after I "got over it"
I guess it can be subconscious mental
Maybe this is all just karma for me always saying things like anxiety or panic attacks are not real