b0b

except I came back

and it just wasn't worth it

so why do it all over again

I'm just doomed

did you do something serious? the way you're phrasing this sounds like there's a lot more stake than there should be just for knowing people

not really

I'm just jaded as shit

I've been around this block a few times as I said

I apologize if I am projecting but you really are souding extremely similar to that canadian I mentioned

yeah I was thinking the same thing

the similarity being that

you're bothing putting a lot of stake in relationships, probably more than the people you think you've offended have

and it seems like you think it all boils down to something wrong with you

it does

because if this shit happens everywhere I go

who else could be the problem

they say the same thing

where they are mistaken though

is that what happens every time isn't that they cause a problem

but that they always think they cause a problem

again I have no idea of the scenario so I'm just assuming things

it's probably accurate enough

the reason why I am though is because most of the time when this stuff happens

it's because one person kills off the other one one-sidedly

before they get a chance to clarify what they think

well it's just me killing me off

well

for these old people, if you want to get back with them you should try

god isn't going to smite you for being cringe or an asshole, all you have to do is respond honestly if you think you're unwelcome

I'm already unwelcome

did I mention the part where they said I wasn't allowed back in

no

well

that's the situation

well that's different if they have clearly said something

I just heard it from a friend who heard it from friend still in the group

server owner doesn't like doing invites

yeah if you're banned you're banned

if you think you did something wrong then try to adjust, otherwise you can probably continue on as honestly as you can

I think the only issue is with me like I said

well that isn't a bad thing per se

it's just a part of your story

I am either lazy as fuck and do nothing or I burn myself so hard that I become a grouchy asshole for a while

no middle ground

do you think that that is a problem

is it something you want to change

I've been trying to

nothing works

yeah 'fixing' things about yourself doesn't really work

but what you can do is compensate for them or act consciously to counteract the fact

hm

okay

also

you can beat yourself up about whatever, but stressing yourself out about something is just as much a waste of time as sitting around doing nothing and ignoring it.

the only thing that makes a real difference are the things that you decide to actually do or not

so it's pointless to feel like you 'should' be feeling bad about yourself

yeah I know

what's new about this bob chat

like all parts of the server, it is new

What are the new features.

you are allowed to post 5% more

we upped your limit

ooh

that's like

2.08 posts now

what am I gonna do with 0.08 of a post

Dear b0b, No. Yours truly, Fire

keep coping

Dear b0b, They are in your walls Yours truly, They

do you want to get out of my walls

it has to be musty in there

do you want me to like make you a pizza or something

get you a glass of water

I do not like pizza

water is good though

alright

here you go dude

Thanks b0b