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hello polu

what's up

Not much, just got home from work

How about yourself?

I'm uh

today went a little something like this

uhhhhhh ??????? (misery) mmmmm pizza (misery but sleepy)

do you guys ever feel like there aren't enough people in your life

I sometimes imagine you guys are all real

and not figments of my imagination

take your meds

I just feel like

I am alone

probably because I am

I think it's just

the consequences of my actions

What actions?

WELL

uh

I used to have a friend group

and then

I started being an insufferable asshole in general

and

they stopped associating with me

so I just

left

so now it's

kind of just me

Ever considered rejoining or finding new communities

I mean sometimes you might lack people that are "in your" life

or feel like the people that are don't have much of a connection

right

well the thing is idk how to enter said communities because those past friends were the only way to that

so I'm just

I fucked myself

I really really fucked myself

now I just have to live with it I guess

did you ever ask these people straight if they thought you were a problem

I know this one canadian who thinks he's the bane of all his friends' existence every other month and tries to cut himself off from everything, leading to people having to convince him with facts and logic that he isn't a literal devil from hell

not saying that is the case or not

yeah

all they ever say is that I'm troubled and probably don't mean half the shit I say

r

or

said

I guess

past tense

but still

point is